Beast

​There is a beast
inside of me
I’m so afraid
of the consequences
 
of the rippling effect
that comes every time
I succumb
to the disfunction
 
I hide away from
the painful struggle
so I don’t have to
destroy everything
 
I’m tormented by sin
My hampered attempts
to contain this demon
that arises from my
 
closet when no one is
looking at me
The demon I see
when I’m faced
 
with shimmering indecisions
keeps me crippled
with anxiety
Please don’t leave me
 
to my own devices
Hold me down and lock me out
of your world for it’s only
a matter of time\\\