Steel Ball

There’s nowhere to go
nothing to do
my head heavy with remorse
 
I’ve done too much damage
to my soul I can’t
 
get away from the past
escape the self-hatred
spiraling into a void
 
The world is so dark
I can’t find my way
 
Beat my brain with
so much angst I can’t
understand forgive or
 
absolve my transgressions
Falling
 
crashing into a wall
I relive these terrible,
disturbing patterns
 
as if my feet are anchored to
a giant steel ball