Terrific Lies

​Erasing my face
as you tell me I’m no good
I bury my head
in piles
 
of chemicals
just to get lifted up
and spiraled
1,000 miles of nothing
 
I whisper that
I love you and
I never want to leave
your side
 
as I lose my mind
and let my fist fly
into your heart
Terrorized by my lust
 
Is this what
I’ve survived for
Are these the things
I’ve left behind
 
I wonder
solemnly
is it worth all the pain
the turmoil
 
Without you I’d be
dead
maybe
6 feet beneath
 
the sky I’d fly away
to the wild island
where vultures dominate
This is the path I lead
 
It’s love or nothing
and I choose nothing
Poisoned against
your heart
 
I eat the brains of
dead things
falling I’m flying now
I’ll never go back home
 
I never want to
leave this state of mind
this state of being
I see through your
 
terrific lies
but
I don’t care
and I’m
 
walking backwards until
I uncover the secrets
of your soul
just so I can be whole again