Your Head Is Heavy

​I watch your face
go blank
your eyes red as roses
so wide and full of nothing
I feel it
in your tears
The lies you tell me
The way you make me feel
when you tell me this
is it
This is all there is
your breath like poison
ice cubes pouring from
sweat glands
I tell you there’s more
I lie to make it all better
I feel your heartbeat slowing
as I hold you
in my arms
as you say my name
promising me
it’ll all be okay
I know that this can’t be
the end
There has to be more
The promises you spread
like a toxin
Your arms fall and your head
is heavy
 
Have you ever driven
during a rainstorm
at night
on a busy street
All you can see
is an abstract painting of
bright, visceral lights
The darkness and the road ahead
falls out of view to beaming
headlights and green red & yellow
Sometimes I can see your face
when I pass
the graveyard
where you lay